Research Post for April Do Magick 30- Letting Go and Tidying with Void Magic

I kind of wanted to do something that took what I'd developed in the previous 30 Day Magick challenges and combined them into some greater whole. Took me most of the month to find something that felt right, and this is where I ended up at after some accidental successes.

I recently made a 'portable sacred space' for a friend, enchanting an altar cloth with called corners. In doing so, I wove in something I used to call 'antithetical' energy when I was a teenager, which is really sort of a mislabel. It's essentially a void form, the hollow within which the universe fit, the mold or blueprint, and having done so, he remarked upon how powerful it felt.

This lead me to further experiments with this void energy in creating sacred space and felt the results very much a missing part of my energy equations. I can call in all kinds of energy to do things, but all too rarely do I make the space for them to arrive in, and that feels like my missing element.

In essence, I'm going to be banishing with void, forming the mold for the next chapter of my life, and doing away with old tethers holding me back. There's a future me I want to be and that means clearing the path to get there.

Research/Technique:

My goal is to achieve the future me I've been working toward, my best self. Sign posts of this are 1) Female presenting, 2) Succeeding in movie stuff, 3) magick AF, and 4) financially sound. If I can make progress on any of these, I'll feel I've succeeded, and if on all four? I'll feel downright accomplished.

Step 1: Shielding
Essentially, going to be forming the strongest shield bubble I can and pushing outward to separate myself from basic reality.

Step 2: Molding
I'll then be altering my own void mold to be a future me, one on HRT, dressing and living how she wants to live. 

Step 3: Energy Body
Once I've got the mold in place, I'll shift my personal energies to match the mold as best I can.

Step 4: Synchronizing
Time will be taken to get energy body and void body to an equalized state.

Step 5: Reintroduction to Reality
Shielding, molding, and energy body will all be slowly reduced as ordinary reality reconnects. The idea here is to sort of sneak it back in and match my reality with baseline reality, rather than being disruptive.

Also going to be destroying/removing/throwing out things I feel are holding me back, whether it be old relationships, goals, belongings, etc. It's going to be one heck of a month!

Post 30 Research Summary

Often, at the end of these, I've done some research or adjusted my techniques, fine tuning what's

going on to make it work better. This is intended to be a list of observations and technique adjustments for anyone who wants to try the same thing.

RAGE MEDITATION

Pre-Sigil Cleansing: I usually cleanse at some point in the day, but I often cleansed before meditation to ensure nothing crossed over and tainted my rage with unintended energy/intent/consequence.

Focus Sigil: I created my fury focusing sigil as my single point meditative focus, essentially thinking of stuff to make me angry, then focusing and building the fury like a fire. It's a basic sigil, but personal, so while you can use mine if you like, it might work better if you create your own.

Energy Forms and Energy Mixing: Rage is not a good state to hold the body in for too long. Sympathetic nervous stimulation releases adrenaline and cortisol, heart rate rises, blood vessels constrict stopping digestion and other processes, etc.  Because of this, I would recommend adjusting meditation length based on your own physical health. AKA, try to take care of your body.

In an effort to curtail this, I developed an energy form specific to this task. Essentially, I create an energetic duplicate of myself, take it to the astral plane/spirit world, expose it to a stimuli (in this case, channeling rage 24/7) with evolutionary energy to develop a more specialized energetic form I can wear/shift into to better handle it without injury. However, this form, while protective, made the rage 'feel' much less intense, if focused.

My second effort to protect my body was adding in a current of Willpower, Resistance, and Healing, essentially channeling the anger and healing the damage it did, while not losing myself in it. This seemed to have the best mix of mental rage without excessive body rage.

COOL DOWN 

I want to get in touch with anger without becoming an angry person, so I put a lot of measures in place to come back from the snapping, snarling raged out mess.

Table Flip Sigil: I made this using a dollar store doll table and a quick, goofy sigil. Essentially, staring at the face, I wait until it makes me angry, then flip the table, usually hard enough it goes through the air. It seems to work, and sometimes causes me to laugh afterward.

Rose Quartz Meditation: Another part of my cool down has been holding onto a rose quartz and putting it over my heart while doing mantras to absorb the energy of it. I've been doing a Shobha mantra, replacing ugliness with beauty, but there are likely better mantras and meditations for doing this.

Gratitudes: To get angry, you may think of a lot of stuff that makes you mad, which can build up a view where the world is awful. To counter this, I wrote down gratitudes sometime during the day, listing three things I'm grateful about. I think this kept me from dwelling too much upon the world's problems and seeing the positive as well.

Water/Cleansing: Use as needed. Sometimes, it seems best to drink a lot of water, putting the fire out, so to speak, or doing a cleansing of my aura. I didn't do this every time, but I did it often enough to note.

RESULTS & PROGRESS

While I've covered this other places, I think the best way to address this is to say that the rage meditation let me get in touch with fury that I might channel it for goodly use in ritual and trance states, without taxing my body excessively or becoming an angry person. 

It feels as if my ability to channel emotions and energies across the board have increased in tandem, both for intensity and duration.

My ability to focus on a single symbol for a long period of time has been tested and likely improved.

Do Magick 30: Rage Meditation Day 30

Meditation: ~15 minutes, +10 minutes cool down

Today I tried to see about using what I've learned to do... well, something. Honestly, I just focused all my fury into a rock that had snuck in my way and I'd felt the urge to pick up. I imagined the sigil buried in the rock and then let loose, doubling and redoubling the energy over and over again until it felt like I couldn't fit any more into the stone. I then wrapped a ward around it, keeping the fury 'radiation' from leaking out into the environment. I think I might keep it for when I need to throw some fury into a working of some type.

My cooldown involved table flips, a whole lot of laughter, rose quartz, and meditation.

Results: This do magick 30 is different than the first two I did. Those were life changers in a very spiritual, sweeping emotional sense. This was more of a work out, but a needed one. I feel strong, like I can push a whole lot more energy than when I started. I learned to balance out energies to minimize injuries. I maintained discipline in staring at something for long periods of time, even if it got boring.

Getting mentally/spiritually swole may not be as exciting as exploring inner worlds or talking to giant snakes, but I'm sure the greater benefits of practice will make themselves known as time marches on.

Do Magick 30: Rage Meditation Day 29

Meditation Length: 10 minutes, 10 minute cooldown, half hour nap

Today I tried to do the exercise without the sigil, figuring it was fairly ingrained in my mind. The exercise went well, growling, furious, but at some point it just shorted out, and I felt all cuddly and gooey. Not sure what glitched, but it was very interesting.

I think tomorrow, I'm going to try and do something with this technique, rather than just training for the sake of getting better. Not sure what, but open to suggestions.