So, I put in four different benchmarks for making progress, and I reviewed all 30 days to see where I'm at. I'm throwing a letter grade on them, followed by some explanation.
RESULTS
Transition: B- Got a lot of significant work done, but I really wanted to be further along in getting on hormones and replacing my current wardrobe.
Vocal exercises in
car nearly daily. Some compliments on my voice.
Exercise and diet ¾
of month. *stopped last week due to long work week and to have full
mental capacities
So much trance dancing, which does help with the exercise.
So much trance dancing, which does help with the exercise.
Changing pronouns
discussions.
Came out to boss and
friend at work.
Primary care
physician visit, talk about HRT and transgender clinic.
Wore pink at work
and reveled in the reactions, rather than be put off by them.
Small femme
moments.
Financially Sound: D- I'm experiencing some difficulties on this front. Hopefully, will manage to get done what I intended to get done today and get on my way to moving out ASAP.
Financially Sound: D- I'm experiencing some difficulties on this front. Hopefully, will manage to get done what I intended to get done today and get on my way to moving out ASAP.
Apartment
application rejected.
Movie Stuff: B- Got back into contact with several important people, got the gears slowly grinding on movie stuff. Nothing immediate, but moving in the right direction.
Got back into contact with a few people with promising leads
Got back into contact with a few people with promising leads
Talked to manager
and started a new screenplay
Got time off for
film festival.
Premiered my short
film
Entered several film
contests
Magic AF: C- I feel pretty magic, but I've purposely been doing less magic this month to ensure results were from void magic and not conflated with some other practice. Even laid off of offerings this month (it felt as if I'd gotten a signal to do this one solo).
To get to the Best
Future, one must also be their Best Present.
Spontaneous vision
of a past life existence.
Made it all 30 days
despite a lot of distractions.
TECHNIQUE
The technique is simple, but there have been some mild modifications as I go.
Shield- whatever method works for you. Making this a sort of banishment where your universe is in the bubble and the rest of the universe outside is how I'd try to spin it. I try to make the shield stronger than the mold or energy level in further steps as I want to reintroduce the energies without being them being modified by outside forces, a purity of intent maintained.
Shield- whatever method works for you. Making this a sort of banishment where your universe is in the bubble and the rest of the universe outside is how I'd try to spin it. I try to make the shield stronger than the mold or energy level in further steps as I want to reintroduce the energies without being them being modified by outside forces, a purity of intent maintained.
Mold- Finding the 'hollow' within which rests the reality you currently have and are currently heading towards. Realize that the hollow is as complicated as reality itself- it goes backwards and forwards in time like everything else. Feeling out the hollow, you can shape your present mold in hopes of changing where your future will go.
Energy- This is your current energy within the mold, your subtle body, soul, what have you. This will inevitably rest within the mold. As your energy changes, it can can change the mold, and vice versa. Thus, when you get a feel for your energy body's state, begin to-
Synchronize- This is getting the mold and energy body to match. I tend to increase my mold's "depth", then increase my energy level, so they keep going step by step to being more real than any other overlapping reality.
Reintroduction- Once the energy and mold feel right, I begin to reduce the shield, mold, and energy simultaneously, to slip them back into reality, like a puzzle piece that now fits perfectly. During this reduction, I've often found myself slipping into a trance dance, whirling, seething, etc. I think it's a sort of grounding effect, a way to shunt off extra energy or send it where it needs to go.
As I near the end, I often visualize and feel the shield locking into place with reality like a part back in place, before dissolving the shield in such a way that reality within the bubble matches up to the reality outside the bubble. Installing something new that fits seamlessly within the whole.
Reintroduction- Once the energy and mold feel right, I begin to reduce the shield, mold, and energy simultaneously, to slip them back into reality, like a puzzle piece that now fits perfectly. During this reduction, I've often found myself slipping into a trance dance, whirling, seething, etc. I think it's a sort of grounding effect, a way to shunt off extra energy or send it where it needs to go.
As I near the end, I often visualize and feel the shield locking into place with reality like a part back in place, before dissolving the shield in such a way that reality within the bubble matches up to the reality outside the bubble. Installing something new that fits seamlessly within the whole.
OVERALL
I think this was a successful experiment, and one I can't judge based in a 30 day time window. I made some pretty big strides that I often underestimate. While I find myself shooting for the moon and complaining about the stars I land in, I have to also embrace that most of the things I want to do are not done in 30 days. Not making movies, not transitioning, not finances, and not being magic AF.
With that in mind, I'm going to keep doing this practice as long as it suits me in hopes of getting to all those goals. I have a lot on my plate, and the only way to eat an elephant is one bite at a time.
#domagick
With that in mind, I'm going to keep doing this practice as long as it suits me in hopes of getting to all those goals. I have a lot on my plate, and the only way to eat an elephant is one bite at a time.
#domagick
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